This Is The Most Public of My Many Humiliations
Friday, April 30, 2004
so it is 10 pm on friday night.i am so unbelievably tired but yet i still treck on.
im going to take a nap. then shower and get ready to rock. there should be a sweet party a gwan tonite apres sharkeys. i hope that my love is needed there.
dont forget to bring a towel.
how lame is this. im not even out yet at 10 pm on friday.
LOSER
he could handle the shit that i dont have the time or energy to do.
i want him to be the 'hooked on monkey phonic's' monkey from south park.
such a pimpin lil monkey.
im also thinking of investing in one of them gravity scooters. i really need one of them to boot my lazy ass around. u could roll joints and cruise on one of those things. i plan to have one by summer. that is all.
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
does anyone check the T.P after they wipe?ive talked to a few friends about this. and we all came to the conclusion that every must do it.
"you have to have a progress report"
"im not pullin my pants up till i am satisfied with what i see"
this may sound sick and twisted but i know u all do it.
this is a very Taboo subject..
it is a must for guys.. some men have so much crack hair. that sometimes you are not even gaurentied to hit the hole.
i sugest that all of u bring it up tonite at dinner with parents or friends. and get there opinion on it.
firehose shit
Lost: 1 joint.
where:somewhere in my house.
When:sometime after i got stoned.
how:im a pothead.
if this is located please return it to me. im going insane. need to get higher.
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
today is tuesday. tomorow is wednesday.i was suppost to be driving to Halifax today with my dad. but i said fuck that.. there is no way i could drive 15+ hours with my father. by the end of the first hour we would already be at eachothers throats.
i realized last night that some people are not who i thought they were.. that was a real kick in the ass. i am on the very brink of explosion. i hope none of you are around to watch me cruble into a pile of pieces that was once me. My life is in shambles all around me. i have little to no friends.. and the ones i have and love seem to be dissapearing by the second.
life really sucks up here..
.more cheers more beers that's it that's all.
Monday, April 26, 2004
"im a magician. every time I walk down the street I turn into a bar."
"You have yourself- I know how cliched and horrid that sounds... but it is better to have a solid grip of who you are and nothing or no one else, than a debauched mess of a version of you in a group of horrid versions nobody's"
-jo
i have no one.
i am no one.
over who?
over what?
tears are my pillow tonite.
I hate what this town does to my friends
Sunday, April 25, 2004
April 25, 2004 9:18:51 PMTo : angeloisking@hotmail.com
Subject : Money
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So I lent my dad 600 bucks on thursday b4 I left for montral. I called him today 2 see if I could collect my money. He told me he didn't have it.. Of course .. I do owe him $1200. But do kids really have 2 pay back the money the owe their parents. I mean isn't that what parents are for. Too lend endless amounts of money to their offspring. I miss everything about montreal. Love that city. I'm seriously concidering moving there for the summer maybe longer. Ok gotta go cu
tonytheallnightpony
Thursday, April 22, 2004
it is the 3rd week in april. the best time to start your little babies. this is the beginning of a long and hard journey until september. fighting off cops, snatchers, drought, and the deadly frost. I will be posting pictures of my babies as they grow and go through the different stages...Germination is the key to success. if u germinate at the right time you will have great luck with your garden. fuck i love weed. that is all.
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
I think i want to be a special guest geek on the show 'beat the geeks'i could be the 'weed geek', and have cool one liners like Bruce Campbell in Evil Dead.
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
im a model satanist?
andrea says:
honestly, i think that you would make a great satanist
andrea says:
next time we hang out (which i've decided is going to be either tomorrow or thurs) i'm going to show you the notes that we've taken about them, man i would become one
www.gsusking.blogspot.com says:
ok
www.gsusking.blogspot.com says:
cool
www.gsusking.blogspot.com says:
we will read that.
www.gsusking.blogspot.com says:
why me though?
andrea says:
cause its all about being against conformity,
a side from my real life which is mostly entertaining.. i mostly feel like the entertainer.
not the entertainie. my feelings are crushed. i have to go.
Monday, April 19, 2004
My mind is fucked but my body is fine.can u find the irony in this un-glorious rhyme.
-Drop the mistress and pay more attention to real women.
-get a job
-get a physical/blood test
-slap someone
-smoke a joint
-make money
-find a cool chick
-fuck a cool chick
-get loaded
-goto bed
Saturday, April 17, 2004
"ya i was at Waco....dude that bbq totally sucked"love them branch davidians
Reply-To :
Sent : April 16, 2004 4:10:21 PM
To : angeloisking@hotmail.com
Subject : Trafic
It is april 16th @ 4:03 pm... I'm stuck in trafic, I thought brain dead cubicle junkies worked till 5. I'm stuck on the fucking 401 listening to the rythem flow through the subs, the bass gently tickles my back almost as soothing as a mothers touch 2 a newborn child.... Can music really calm my outta my road rage? The sing ahead reads 'express moving slowly collectors moving very slowly beyond next transfer' fuck this I'm going 2 take a nap and dream of some thing cool
tonytheallnightpony
Friday, April 16, 2004
drawdiagrams
of
suicide
on
eachothers
wrists
then
trace
them
with
razorblades
i wonder if the stop payment on them if i dont cash them... can someone tell me what the deal is wit that
Thursday, April 15, 2004
Today I plan on smoking as many joints as possible.. It is 10 am and I am about to begin... Many people ask why I have to smoke so much pot, I have been racking my brain for an answer.. I think it has to do with me wanting to escape reality. I do it to leave u all behind in your cold harsh reality. I found some cool pics of me on New Years I will be uploading them later today. But back to my joints... I need pot like I need air.. Smoking the mean green is the only thing that I think is keeping me from breaking free from the shackles this town has me bound with. The pot makes me really lazy so I don't fight the power. I am too much of a revolutionary to not be stoned... If I was sober all the time I would be to much of a shit disturber and probably be in jail... Pot keeps the beast inside me.. I really want to start working out...Pumping iron. IM such a little weak bitch right now. I think everyday what my career is going to be when I finally get one.. I was pondering how cool it would be to become a baby massager. You could charge out the wazzoo for an hour long baby massage. If I quit smoking pot I would workout and get huge
but fuck that
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
thereisthispersoniknowthatdoesthislittlehandthingiethatithinkissofunnyTuesday, April 13, 2004
so this is a picture of the fire pit that was in the middle of my table at this korean grill i ate at yesterday... it was quite interesting i was seriously sick from the lack of doneness of the meet...
It was really intense i dont think that i could eat that meat. It is an all u can eat meat buffet.... they just kept sending out meat, meat, and more meat. I was about to explode from all the salmon i ingested...after this lunch i continued shopping along... i am the king of passing out
Monday, April 12, 2004
I need to somehow get some pictures up on this site from systems... Had a blast. Took like 100 pics of some much shit it would blow your mind..I wonder why they stop playing music when the play starts in hockey... They play music through out any lacrosse game... And that shit gets me hype. There is nothing better then sitting in the stands at a Rock game with a bunch of your boys. Drinking your own personal Mickey, jammin to tunes... Watching a bunch of fast white dude smack the shit outta each other... I am going to write a letter to the commissioner of the NHL telling him to keep the back round music playing in the arena. Ill bet they will see many more people coming out to see hockey games.. And I will also guaranty that the players will play be much more hype. Don't get me wrong playoff hockey is still amazing... But the music would add a whole new level of keyness.I think I have a serious shopping problem.. I have spend endless 1000's in the past month or so... Just on clothing... Sure I might be the best dressed guy in the room; but I am afraid if I don't stop soon I might shop myself in to a serious debt.... Toronto is beating Ottawa in the game as I type. GLORIOUS.
I went to this crazy Korean restaurant today.. Where they bring u raw meat and fish.. And u have this Lil crazy grill in the table... So key.. U get to cook ur own food... I think I didn't cook some off the beef enough cause my stomach is starting to give me shit. I have a picture of the table for all of u that cant imagine what I am talking about... ne way someone is waiting for me outside so i gotta go... check u later
So last night rocked my world
Sunday, April 11, 2004
I think phil's computer has AIDS..."magic johnson aint got shit on my comp"
-Phil Roberts
well if u do here u go. This site will tell u where and who is checking up/stalking you.
IP Finder
Today is Easter Sunday and I plan on getting beyond wrecked tonite ... One of my fave dj's from the UK is in town and this is something I just cant miss... Drum and bass has gone really far since I first started listening to it in the mid 90's. It has become technoise, but I am still a huge fan.. There is no other music that fills my body with such soul.. Well that and classical piano.. I love the new 'Liquid Funk' aspect of the music... I cant wait to line the bar with shots tonite and then dance till I drop... Zinc don't let me down bro...
I met some cool dudes last night name Beej and Marc. I was chillin at marks apt. Last night. He was a really down2 earth guy, he reminded me much of my friend matt.... I guess it is because they spent a fair amount of time together... I wish I had drank more JD last night... It would have made me numb to the pain. I love the way people write when they are all fucked on coke... It makes sense but there mind is absolutely everywhere... It seems like every random thought that they have is quickly jotted down in a sketchy free hand writing style that is almost next to impossible to read... The letter did get the point across to me.. But I don't know what to do about/with it.
once again my back is to the ropes... Why cant things just be a bit more interesting...
"how can I care so much about someone when they don't even care about themselves."
I think about this every day, and it is a serious argument.
it is like she is working backwards.. Almost against my efforts to make things better. If that is the way u want thing to be ? Just let me know and I will stop trying... fuck coke fuck coke fuck coke. fuck Ottawa fuck Ottawa fuck Ottawa.
Ottawa Song
Saturday, April 10, 2004
" interesting people, thought-provoking people are those whom have time not for the silly things--They are those who concern themselves with matters as opposed to matter"-Jo Coates(my fave neighbour of all time)
" 'even though no one will probably ever read this'...
is it cathartic or scary to publish your thoughts?
I could never decipher."
Jo I (heart) you
Jo on the right
i hate bush and blair
fuck u 2 CIA
Friday, April 09, 2004
I think I am going to become a born again Christian... They all are so withdrawn with what is really happening around them, ignorance is truly bliss. I guess all cult like religions provide the same sense of ignorance.I need to get the fuck outta dodge. I am starting to feel to confined in this bubble of a town. There is never much to do, and always too much to smoke. It is like a never ending cycle of nothing...I must find a way to break this cycle.. I have tried moving somewhere far away hoping to escape the cold grasp of home... But this town is so deep in my blood I returned after only a few months....I wish I was ignorant to my surroundings. But can I really find happiness in God? Or Jebus? I don't think so. All I want is a simple life( minus Nicole Richie. Paris can stay.) on a farm or something like that. Grow all the food and pot I need everything would be so much easier. I used to live on a farm, I loved it. I seriously would give any thing to still be living there. Everything was much more innocent. I wonder sometimes if I had stayed there how I would have turned out. I would be a tanned little farm boy hick riding my lawn tractor to the variety store for a pack of smokes and some beef jerky...That's it I m moving to a farm. Happy Easter everyone.
Thursday, April 08, 2004
blerp
looking for his next lay
still hasnt found her yet
my shrine to masta
for todays post.. i am going to post some shit i wrote a few months ago from my other site... enjoy junkies
Drum and bass head posted at 12:44am 11 Feb 2004
So as I sit here inside of element night club ans the drum and bass pounds through my body, the only thought that races through my mind is her, and the weird things she says. I brush her off as she calls me a feeling hurter.. I really don't unserstand her, she makes me feel 18 again, giddy fun ready for ne thing that comes my way, excpt for her, god how I would love to know what she really thinks of me and what I do.....I have only know her for a month and with the stress she causes it feels like I have known her for years .... She gets up to dance in front of me, some sort of ploy to grab my attention while I type this document unknown to her. I can see her eyes wander to my screen to take a curious peak.....little does she know most of my thoughts invole her. When will I learn that women are like rubix cubes , the more u play with them the more frustrated U get.... tonytheallnightpony
Yawn posted at 06:18pm 10 Feb 2004
So last nite was entertaing. Got nicely smashed with a few good friends, we all sat around playing megatouch(u know that game that most bars have, no it isn't some freak game us oakville people play), eating hot wings, and drinking martini's(how classy). As the night progressed I could sence that a bit of tention had built up between 2 of my friends who r both tryong to gain my affection. In this situation I never know what to do; I don't want to be mean to either of them, and I can't be rude by trying to have both of them. So now I was inbetween a rock and a hard place. As I prepared to leave both of them at the bar to avoid a confrontation, i realized that she means 2 much to me to walk away. untill somethin interesting happens...byebye tonytheallnightpony
Re: Another morning in a secluded wasteland posted at 07:01pm 09 Feb 2004
So today I planned to do something usefull.(notice the use of the word 'planned') "today I am going too look for a job, or at least find a place that I can volunteer at, to help pass the boring hours I spend in this useless bubble of a town" I told myself as I awoke from my slumber. But par ussual after waking up and having my morning cig, I signed on2 msn msngr, within seconds I already had many offers for a quick smoke and breakfast. and ofcourse because of this I got absolutely nothing done today. As I am typing this lil rant that I call my day I am breaking up my next bowl, I swear this stuff is an neverending cycle that seems impossible to break. Well screw it time for another hit. Have a good one I will have a few beers for u
tonytheallnightpony
This weekend was so boring it is unreal. This oakville life is killin, I really need to get away somewhere warm. Cancun is callin my name maybe I will go there sometime soon. The winter season always affects my mood. Sometimes I feel like I was ment to be born in antigua, I guess the stork made a pitstop in canada to pick up some top quality bud or something. I am going to buy the camera for this piece of poo fido phone today I really hope it is worth the 80 bucks it costs. As I am traveling to go get some breakfast, all I can think about is her and the way she deserves much better then what I can offer 2 her. Am I really that worthless? " love the one you are with" I can't reall remember who told me that but I thin "love the one you are (stuck) with suits me better. Untill later tonythallnightpony
every one goto zinc and navigator this comming sunday
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
they mostly come out at nite, mostly.
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