This Is The Most Public of My Many Humiliations

Sunday, May 23, 2004

i really want to go out tonite i cant wait. it should be a good time. i hope they have a 19 + area. cause seriously jungle without booze. is like drum without bass.
i honestly am starting to hate some people that i hang out with.
i guess it just gets like that when friends spend to much time together.
the smallest quirks in their personality can just set you right off.
its like i judge everything everyone says/does, i dont really like to be in that position. its just the way my mind works.
i wish that it was 6 months ago. even though it was winter and shitty, i had a different look on life.
my eyes were open to the world.
my spirit was flowing freely in the pool of cool.
i had a best friend who was the coolest person in the world to me and would do anything for me. but i fucked that one up really large.
i wish i could just change just one moment in time. i wonder how things would bbe like now. if not 5 years from now. if i had just made that one different decision. would i be happy? dead? in jail? a priest?
i guess no one was ever really ment to go back in time and change the way their life turned out.
its erie to think about. that u could change your current possition in life with one change of mind 10 years ago.
fuck thinking about this is making me feel like shit.
i hate it.
o well
cheers

killed softly at 5/23/2004 03:41:00 PM

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