This Is The Most Public of My Many Humiliations

Saturday, June 26, 2004

I really wanted to go shopping today, but i am going to most likely sit around and wait, and wait and wait.
i m really bored, and want to go sailing, but my friends are all in montreal.
totally depressed today, i cant eat but my stomach is killing, cant think but my mind is racing, cant believe but my heart is true.
im so bored and have nothing to write about beside my ever growing depression.
i feel sooo sick to my stomach right now.
i want someone to come and give me a hug and hold me in their arms, i want someone to tell me everything will be alright.
but i have no one. i have nothing.
i want to do backflips off the bridge and land on a boat.
it is waterfront festival here in oakville, what a big gay waste of time.
all it does is hold up trafic, tie up the public transpot system, and make cabs almost unavailable.
Its a lame attempt to bring tourism in to this shitty town.

Today i feel very very nomadic. i want to just pack a bag, and walk, hitchhike, take advantage of the free public transport. i dont ever want to come back here, ever seen anyone who lives here, or even talk to them.
i need to start a new life, to stop all this shit that i am doing now.
in the past 24 hours my eyes have been seriously opened to the world around me, how could i have been so blind for soooo long?

killed softly at 6/26/2004 02:41:00 PM

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