This Is The Most Public of My Many Humiliations
Monday, July 12, 2004
2 pm july 11/04
its my last day in mexico and it is turning out to be the worst.
i checked my email, and went on msn.
i had not one personal email and no one talked to me on msn.
I am a loser. i dont want to go home where i am not even missed.
we totally ended it today cause i knew that she was no longer true to me. she has compleatly stomped on my heart. I thought that this trip would save our relationship
i love her :)
when i get home its time for a new me.
There is a lil mexican who gave some people the wrong directions to the beach. we laughed together, it was the best i had felt in a while.
i wonder how Carla is doing. She is so sweet to me. God what is wrong with me. I should be happy. I AM FREE.
My mexican gypsy friend who kicked my ass in backgammon is no where to be found
i wanted a picture of her. But o well. i going to get a beer.
2:30 pm July 11 04
I walked to the beach to find raymi right behind me. I feel uncomfortable around her so i left. i came to get a coffee at this lil cute shop espresso how i needed you.
the coffee in my hotel was to dark and to shitty to drink
i was thinking of my nonno and nonna last night and how every sunday at our traditional italian lunch it was always my job to make the espresso what i would give too see them both once more. Rocco told me how his father dies on christmas 2002 it made me so dad. i wonder how my dad is doing
i have been writing non stop all day
the hotel is trying to fuck me outta some money for long distance calls i have to go there and deal with it after my coffee.
killed softly at 7/12/2004 12:20:00 PM
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