This Is The Most Public of My Many Humiliations

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

yesterday consisted of me doing absolutly nothing.
i am going to school now, night school, be it as it may i am still going to get a diploma, i really cant wait. Its still going to cost me something stupid like 10000$. But i seriously think it will be worth it. I am putting my plans to move to vancover on hold for a bit, because seriously, school is where i need to be right now. Not working as some P.A on a movie set. They say if u wait long enuff good will come to you. i have been waiting for a while and all i get are long demented nightmares.
I just have to stop looking for what i want, and hopefully it will come along and slap me in the face, and say "hey buddy, its about that time to get ur shit in gear, get a job, & learn to fucking relax 'you know kidstuff'"

But until that slap in the face, i am going to be a bored, depressed, and seriously bitter bitter man.
I am willing to give up my dream life, to throw it all away to try this new thing i have taken a huge interest in. I hope that it doesnt fuck me over, or discourage me to the point where i become that dude on the street, with the funny sign that you deny change even though u have a pocketfull weighing you down.
so if you ever pass me on the street corner, throw me a buck and remember the good times.

killed softly at 8/11/2004 10:39:00 AM

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