This Is The Most Public of My Many Humiliations

Thursday, September 02, 2004

ELOHIM,

I am so thankful for everything, especially the people who are constantly trying to make me feel better. I know we haven't talked in a while, but I hope all is well with you.
Things here are not the best right now, I have a lot of shit that I am having a hard time dealing with. As you can probably already tell I am going to ask you for some help. I know I only talk to you when I need something, but isn't that what friends are for?
I am seeking your guidance on what to do with what has become of my life?
where am I go to from here? I have registered in school and I am very nervous to start.
I am no longer sick like I was when I was a kid. I am really happy for that, I have quit smoking weed, and quit drinking. I am asking you for you support, to help me through this time of need. I think about you all the time, and wonder if you think of me.
I sometimes wonder if I am here for a reason? On this earth to do one specific thing, or many specific things? I have always been able to entertain people, but why do they not care? I try my best to be a good person, but we all slip up sometimes, you should understand that very well. Remember when I was a kid? When I was such a shit disturber, you never really disciplined me, never slapped me to set me straight. That was really cool of you just to stand by my side like that. If I was your real kid I wonder if you would have acted the same way?
I know this letter is filled with so many questions, that you probably don't know the answer too. But if you have the time, try to answer them for me. I would really apricot's that.
your pal,
angel.

killed softly at 9/02/2004 09:19:00 AM

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