This Is The Most Public of My Many Humiliations

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Wednesday, September 01, 2004



I am sorta losing it right now.
I am so fucking bored. My site is falling apart. Most of my good pics are gone, lost in the world wide web.
I really need a hug right now, someone to pay some attention to me, to entertain me, to love me.
I sit here all alone. Loneliness is the only thing that I share my company with.
I am so fucking bored, and people on my msn, are sick of talking to me, everyone should just block me. I feel sick to my stomach from the raw chicken I ate today.
I wish I had a friend. Just one. That's all I want. I want a dog, or a cat.
As I hug my naked, monkey that I won last night from the claw machine, my mind races.
thinking of good times, and bad.
I want to be somewhere that has new people, a place that is so distant and unknown to me.
I wish there was a party tonite so I could go and not drink, and make fun of all the addicts surrounding me, but i would have to make fun of them myself, inside my own head. i dont think it would be as entertaining as i hoped.
It really sucks, cause i honestly have no friends. No one who really wants to just talk to me, or to just hang out with me. No one i can just call, that would drop everything just to chill with me. and that is sad. really really sad.
How the mighty have fallen.

My brother from another mother/personal cabbie has been fired, what the fuck is going on. i have been trying to get a hold of him, and now i seriously feel like shit. i dont know what i am going to do. Tomorow i goto the cab company, to fucking go on a tyrate, im going to punch the owner in the face. He was not only my driver, he was one of the closest friends i have ever had, Kuwalgit, if you read this, know that i fucking love you dude, and that i will never ever fucking forget you and everything you ever did for me and my friends.
he is the reason why i started my cab driver confessional site.
he inspired me to do many things, and advised me when i was doing wrong.
he was always there just to talk to me and was always so fucking good to raymi, i know she loved him too. almost as much as he loved her.
i am fucking crying right now.
fuck this this i am outta here. going for a walk.
or something.

killed softly at 9/01/2004 08:28:00 PM
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