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Friday, December 10, 2004

That is what I look like when I am happy. Makes you wonder what I look like when I am pissed off. I live 90% of my life in a bitter state. The counter on my site is busted so I am pissed off about that also. But there is nothing really that you can do about it.

Friday, wow, already?! Today is my friend Connor's bday. He was in the movie Billy Madison, "you're out! O'Doyle rules" was his line. He is 19 today, so he can finally come out to the bars and be legal.

People seem to love these little green pills, with there cute little candy shell. I have never tried them, and most likely never will. These things are spreading through the lower states like wild fire. People would step over their own mother just for a quarter of a pill. That kinda makes me sad. Sad in a bad way.

This time around I am doing things very differently. I don't trust women what-so-ever, and if you are a male, smart, and reading this; you shouldn't trust women either. It kinda sucks, cause every relationship I am in there is a complete lack of trust. I really wish I could change that about me. I wish I could love someone with out thinking they are going to fuck me over some how. Its almost unfair, I should not be allowed to date anyone. But really, I cant be blamed for the lack of trust I show. Basically every girl I have dated has fucked me over in one form or another. The last girl I was with, called me and told me I gave her the clap. But really she had been fucking some other dude, and she had almost givin it to me. There are other stories for other girlfriends, but I will save them for a day I have nothing to write about.
Truthfully the lack of trust stems from my mother, but that is also a story for another day.

killed softly at 12/10/2004 01:02:00 PM

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