This Is The Most Public of My Many Humiliations

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Monday, March 07, 2005



I watched 'I Heart Huckabees' last night. Wow. It was a seriously fucked up movie. I really liked the guy who looked like an ugly tom cruise. I could totally relate with his character. It was almost scary. All my friends really hated the movie and thought it was the strangest thing they have ever seen. My friends have also called me the strangest thing they have ever seen. I wonder if they hate me too.

I guess this blog really doesn't show it well, but I am quirky, strange, and not really normal. I am always polite and proper. But my mind is always racing. When I am having a convo with someone, I feel like I am 10 mins ahead of them when I am talking.



Its not like I am talking faster then them. I just treat conversations like chess games. I think 10 moves ahead. When I am talking to you, I have already lived out the whole conversation, from start to finish. Thought of every option, every possible direction the conversation can take, easy 'outs' I can use to change the subject, and if I am sick of talking to you, I have about 100001 excuses prepared to cut our convo short.



Sometimes I think so much about one simple little thing, like the way a leaf falls in the wind. Ill think and think, why does it turn, spin and dance with the wind, while that other leaf falls quickly to the ground. I wonder if the fast falling leaf is jealous of the dancing leaf. Then my mind stems off into 10000 other thoughts that have to do with wind direction, the mass of said leaf, and when the next time the circus is coming to town.

killed softly at 3/07/2005 10:46:00 AM
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