This Is The Most Public of My Many Humiliations

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

My trip starts with a Caesar, not the best Caesar I've ever had, but it still hits the spot.
Montreal in 5 hours how many ceasers can I drink before then?
First class tickets are cheap right now, so I figure ill make up the difference in the free alcohol they give away.
Ceasers are the drink of choice today due to my actions last night.

Last night in semi point form.

- broken heart
- MMVA after party
- booze
- photos
- booze
- photos
- booze
- MSTRKRFT
- ect ect ect

I'm noticing a common trend.
Maybe why I've been so fucked up and emotional lately is because of stress?
Alcohol(in proper doses) relieves stress
My problem is once I have more then 3, I become an uncontrollable alcohol monster, drinking everything in sight, even stuff that's outta sight.
Haha
I laugh at myself as I look back on it now.
This is why I try not to drink, I don't like to laugh at myself.
I think of myself as a proud person.
Not cool, not that smart, but I do have self pride, which isn't always a good thing.
Don't get it mixed up with an ego like most do.
Its not an ego,
I just project myself with a very high confidence, to shadow the confidence that im truly lacking
I have to get my hair cut tomorrow, I have some big meeting this week where I must look respectable, yet hip, yet what's that supposed to mean?

1 Caesar down

If you are reading this... And i know you are... Just remember ill miss you.

killed softly at 6/20/2006 08:00:00 AM

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